relief on cue

i feel unburdened today... more like almost at the rest of God yet not quite... but enough to know that there is hope for the coming days... thank you, dear Lord. like these bats gathered at the quiet corner of the churchyard, waiting for dusk to come so they can fly and roam, i am waiting, too. for further instructions...i am in a settled mode. where all seems okay. i can do what i have to do the usual way i do them and not be bothered by doubts. when even if they come they get filtered thru the general air of wellness around me... mixing with the atmosphere until they seem to not exist... this is new to me. is this the rest of God? the place where i am in His arms? i believe so. how apt that yesterday's homily during the mass talks about something similar. the priest said that every time we pray the Our Father, we raise our hands to God, do we not? well, just like a little tired child asking to be carried in his/her father's arms... we say, "Papa, carry me." or "Tatay, karga mo ko." to God, our Loving Father so we could rest a while. it feels nice. so, i'll savor the moment... soon, He's gonna tell me: " run along now... it's time to continue..." yet somehow, i am torn between the serene now and the exciting soon; between boasting His blessings and wanting to be humble. oh well! i'll just wait for His cue...