pinoy christmas

another Christmas here, in the country where people are hopelessly hopeful. where everyone try their best to celebrate the season... with or without money... sharing gifts, time, energy, food, fun, laughter, love peace hope... all the hallmark card moments even for only a moment , a day or so... like all the world does, huh? but difference of a Pinoy Christmas is family... the merriest Christmas is in every home where every one share their hall mark moments... corny, mushy, funny, boring or otherwise... we enjoy those moments... and take to heart the special feeling that relations and friends do remember in such a special season even if they are really waiting for gifts and aguinaldo... hehehe... you are really sharing the moment short as it is... you made someone happy and that's what counts best of all... Happy Birthday, Jesus! and The Merriest Christmas to all!

I miss the rain. it hasn't rained in a while... but a storm is coming... and will hit the country in a day or so... almost like the last... may be worst... is this the rain i love... me in a good house... protected by it's walls... outside... other people's lives get affected far worst that it should... double desolation. of the physical and the spiritual... emotional and social.... i wish so much it won't hit so hard... i'll find hope in the stormiest rain but what about the other people... those that only see getting wet and not the lush life rain brings... are they blind or am i? since i only see the beauty and little of the unsightly... i don't know... i just love the rain, i guess...

yesterday we have a typhoon. no classes. not much work. power out. but i got to do several things. i got to sketch some designs for a client like the one here. read a book... the president's daughter by jack higgins... in single day. and watch the wind batter the trees outside my window... saw a finch of sorts flying from branch to branch. and thought that there i am enjoying the melancholic moment only because i am safe in a sturdy house ... what about the ones whose houses are under water. roofs blown off by the wind. houses crushed by trees. they who have to evacuate and worry for the rest of their lives... where to live... what to do...how to get on with their lives... where can they find hope? and me... here i am writing my blog anew... going about my day... my life... seeing the hope in every tattered leaf scattered on the ground. worrying only about the things that no one bother to think of... what good is that? what right do i have to be hopeful when everyone around me feels hopeless? how do i show them what i see? when all they see are decay... i still love the rain of course... how do i teach others to love it as well?

it's raining again. as i figured at the start of the day. love the rain. nostalgia and melancholy. keanne sings in my head -- bedshaped and cold play sings -- yellow. feels like a rocker today. so much energy, bursting from within... dunno why... must be some magical thing going on inside me... but then that's just me...the dreamer within is still asleep...

jewel sings in my head... again and again... goodbye alice in wonderland, goodbye yellow brick road. 1000 miles away and a long slow slide....down... nice songs. jumbled words in my head. melody mixed up together. but i'm ok. best day of my week. had a great night as well... why? because it rained last night.:) (ps: just check out jewel's website for her songs)

if God gave you something to smile about today, why would you let everything else make you forget about it? whether it's seeing a fave series on tv...hearing a great music...seeing a bird perched near your window...getting opportunities to do what you failed to do yesterday...making someone smile... God has something to do with it you know... be happy cause you get to experience what you can because there are many people out there who are desperately searching for a little happiness and they can't feel... because they aren't savoring the little moments but waiting for the big things... i am. are you?

nothing. nothing in mind. only afterthoughts. i read somewhere... when life gives you a rainy day, find a puddle to splash in. nice! it's raining today... i'll go find my puddle.