rain lessons and then some

last saturday, there was a sudden downpour. the kind that seem to be a storm. strong winds, thunder and lightning. i was busy blogging and emailing that i just enjoyed the cool wind and the smell of rain. i didn't know that something happened that will make an impact in my brain. it was only the monday after that i noticed... an neighbor's tree lay halfway across our yard... split in half... made me realized that standing tall doesn't necessarily mean strength. next to the bamboo grove the ancient mabolo tree stood tall and proud... now it lay broken and in pieces. made me think about humility. yesterday, i had one of those doubting moments. somehow in the midst of my thoughts, God seem to tell me... " did you not wished for rain earlier and am i not giving it to you know." gulay! i did asked for rain earlier to cool things and at that moment of doubt and uncertainty, it indeed was raining... so God can't solve the bigger issues but He go give me something to be thankful for the moment... made me think of an article that tells of insulting God every time one doubts... so there... i resolved to stop insulting God... to place my trust in Him... to entirely place my trust on Him... look at that! the rain carry with it two lessons for me... humility and trust... both very difficult to acquire... how i really love the rain! but it hasn't really rain that much during what is supposed to be the rainy season... it always rain on my bday month. so i'll hope for that. :) "stop hoping for something you can't have!" i just told my sister that and it hit me... i been like hoping for things as such lately... my gulay! am i that so scattered brain lately that i can't focus on the obvious? i've been preachy lately about the goodness of God... not to get me wrong... God is indeed being great and all... i think it's me that got too excited and boastful... of His blessings to me... tsk... tsk... the greatest of sin! pride indeed never sleeps! i believe God made me miss a lot of steps lately to humble me. to remind me that i am still in a process not yet ready... not quite perfect. so today i resolve on a couple of things: i will do the exact opposite of what i fear and doubt and i will try to be of help to someone in need. if only to make amends. so, i continue to take this journey of faith... trusting God... completely.