ngayon

kahapon
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"ngayon ang simula
ng hiram mong buhay
ngayon daidig mo'y
bata at makulay
ngayon gugulin mo
nang tama't mahusay
bawat saglit at sandali
magsikap ka't magpuyagi
maging aral bawat mali...
ngayon
bago ito maging kahapon
ang pakakataon
sana'y wag itapon
ikaw tulad ko rin
ay may dapit hapon
pag ika'y napalingon
sa nagdaang bawat ngayon
nasayang lang na panahon...
ituring mong kahapo'y
waring panaginip lang
ang bukas pangitain n'yang
ganda'y sa isip lang
kung bawat ngayon mo
sa'yo ay laging sulit lang
kay ganda ng buhay
bukas mo'y matibay
dahil ang sandiga'y
ngayon..."

-- lea salonga,ngayon (a basil valdez original) -- from her songs from home album
i have vowed to be more steadfast in my pursuit of learning and wisdom... i have told myself to be absolutely firm on my decision not to be bothered by the past afterthoughts that meddle my brain... but i can still feel the enemy creeping in ... breathing close by... yet couldn't get close enough to get a grip... the above song talks about living in the moment... basking in the now of things and never looking back with regret and expecting too much from the future... this God-planned journey... this steps of faith... mostly uncertain... i could be like whom i was before and worry to death... but there is a difference now... i wish i could shout it out and be proud about it... but i can't boast that much... i'm still under repair... i can just smile my secret smiles and know i'm doing far well than what others think i'm doing... because i have learned to trust God... even if i have looked and acted rather silly at the start of the year before and maybe even now... but what is yesterday but history... and what is tomorrow but a maybe... now is here... even if i'm sometimes not in tune at all... i am aware... i know... i see... i sense... i feel... that is our difference... in my silliness i sometimes look oddly stupid that i may seem to be incapable of learning anything... yet...i can... i did... i have... and continue to do so... come along... now. blessed be!