amihan and me

from the east i heard the foghorn screamed it's 5pm... suddenly someone came to mind... i dismissed it... outside the northeast monsoon wind... locally called hanging amihan... blows mightily... tossing everything it can... i wanted to go out and feel it on my skin but things kept me inside... it does seeps into every nook and cranny and the air's rather chilly... looking like it's going to rain but not exactly... it has been haunting since i woke up... maybe even during the night... wanting me to write... and yet there is nothing at all that is of interest to write about... just this unworriedness i've been having... i only have a short worry list now... just two letters... but i guess... the shadow of uncertainty wanted clarity... so it is claiming my attention... in an instant flash of melancholy i almost dropped to sulking mode but... i read something from a book which made me think otherwise... i am still under repair, i still have some questions... i still get impatient... but one thing is certain... God is not going to let me drop back... He is, after all, my strength. "you get impatient with your own life, trying to master a habit or control a sin -- and in your frustration begin to wonder where the power of God is. be patient. God is using today's difficulties to strengthen you for tomorrow. he is equipping you. the God who makes things grow will help you bear fruit. dwell on the fact that God lives within you. think about the power that gives you life. the realization that God is dwelling within you may change the places you want to go and the things you want to do today. do what is right this week, whatever it is, whatever comes down the path, whatever problems and dilemmas you face -- just do what's right. maybe no one else is doing what's right,but you do what's right. you be honest. you take a stand. you be true. after all, regardless of what you do, God does what is right: He saves you with His grace." --- Max Lucado